f < b

long lasting friendship exists.
until your bff gets a bf..
seems like the case now :[

love letter

To: JAY CHOU
3 years? 4 years? 5 years?
i'll wait.
till then, i definitely see you, closer and clearer
xoxo lit :D

JAY CHOU THE ERA 2010 WORLD TOUR!!

OMG I SAW JAY CHOU OMG~!!
just this year earler when i still thought it was impossible to go jay chou's concert and thats when i promised myself i WILL go his concert one day
but i didnt expect it to be fulfilled this concert!!
thanks to casey for the free tix :D
was really excited just now before going
had sweaty and cold palms
really damn excited
i still te di wear new my bling off shoulders
totally hyperventilated when i thought he came out
but turned out to be some lame m1 advertisement
at that moment when i thought it was him i really.. omg
after that i couldnt stop shivering
i was totally shaking in my seat cos really really too excited alr
then jay chou came out omg~!!
i have never heard the first song before but nvm just sing along with the lyrics
2nd was kua shi dai
actually he sang quite alot of songs which i wasnt shou with
throughout the whole concert he never fails to surprise me]
like making modifications to the song
and biao-ing his gao yin
his gao yin and zhuan yin really really made my heart melt damn good
his voice totally sounded the same if not better than those cd
omg i cant stop thinking about him and his song~
throughout the concert the things that he do never fail to make an omg~ out of my mouth
i was totally high when he sang the songs i like love
stood up even though casey didnt want to
but i dont think the whole stadium was v high
cos dont really hear EVERYONE singing along with the lyrics
and only some shouted ENCORE
liked the part where the drummer hit 3 beats and everyone shout ZHOU! JIE! LUN! with each beat :D
love his white piano omg!
damn elegant and sleek and nice
im going to learn piano for his sake
i dont ever want to forget today!!
no pink ying guang bang
songs: kua shi dai, hei se you mo, long juan feng, yang guang zai nan, wo bu pei, shuang jie gun, ju hua tai, shi guang ji, jian dan ai, ke ai nu ren, xi ha kong jie, shuo le zai jian, chao ren bu hui fei, gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian, yi fu zhi ming, ai zai xi yuan qian, yu xia yi zhen wan, mian fei jiao xue lu ying dai, ba wo hui lai le, dao xiang, she wu, long zhan qi shi, mo shu xian sheng, kai bu liao kou (to be continued cos i cant rmb all now)
special guest: lara, yuan yong lin cindy, gary, lang hua xiong di, stephanie sun (though she didnt sing)
jay chou threw a pink rose to the audience omg i wonder which lucky girl got it
he also threw a pink shuang jie gun
PINK SHUANG JIE GUN SO SPECIAL!!
zhou jie lun look damn charming when he's playing the piano omg im totally falling in love with him <3
really really love his creations and songa and gao yin
can i not forget this day..
although he didnt sing feng, i still love him
i will definitely go his next concert
and the nex time it will be at the front so that i can catch the pink rose and shuang jie gun and SHAKE HAND WITH HIM AHHHHHHHHHHHH~
KUAI SHI YONG SHUANG JIE GUN HE HE HA HE!!
shuang jie gun was the last song :[
damn sad when he disappeared behind the stage
really really v sad
FEEL LIKE CRYING!! ;[
TA WEN WO COFFEE TEA OR ME
then got one part after his song immediately blackout then he was like " bu cuo wo"
DAMN CUTE OMG
then behind the audience got the bar then got the lyrics then i was thinking why they put it behind the audience cos the audience will just look at the lyrics on the screen
then casey's jin said its for him to see!
hahahha in case he forget the lyrics
but he still got some parts lyrics sing wrong
but nvm its damn good alr
his beatboxing damn good and the guitar part v creative
the whole visual effect was really good
then got mini fireworks haha <3
I LOVE YOU ZHOU JIE LUN
i've listened to your songs for 10 years
and i will still continue to support u for another 100 years <3
the video and the wordings damn touching!!
when i look at zhou jie lun and hear him singing, i wonder why i still like kat its ridiculous

oh ya, he damn cute when he tou xiao!!

Its dripping away slowly bit by bit

My love for u is really using up. Though I really doubt I can totally get over u

Was quite happy today morning cos alot of pple praised my rainbow rubberband and I didnt get into trouble with mr low during maths. But later when we went astons I felt abit left out. Cos bao and sharon couldnt stop talking abt their relationship things. Then the other couldnt stop being engrossed in it. I dont know if I feel left out because I was jealous or because they was on one seating opp of me or I was just still sensitive abt the whole simon thing, even though I really dont like him liao. Maybe abit of the three. But like just feel v left out. Tried to engage in their convo which I dont really like. Later took bus to new look at suntec. It was horrendous at new look. I dont know why. Somehow I just feel v emo and still left out. So I could just play my bubble town. I think I'm quite irritated by her. I cant stand her being so shy its like quite fake and irritating. I mean I know its real but I just find it v kua zhang. I'm such a bad frn. Then she's like quite worried and asked me whats wrong with me nowadays why I keep playing bubble town like isolating myself. I didnt realise it till she said. I think it became a habit. Like anytime I'm not doing anyth, I will play bubble town. But Duno why when she asked I felt like crying. I dont know its cos i'm touched or maybe cos I really feel too left out and wei qu. Really got tears at my eyes but of cos must ren later they make a mountain out of a molehill. Got abit happier when I played with casey. I think casey and joan are the only ones in class who can really cheer me up cos they dont mind being childish with me. And ah boo and bao using the talking approach. Sometimes talking with a boo can be v mood lifting duno why. The rest is quite oblivious to pple's feelings in general. Totally wasted my time today except for the new pencil box! :D

i may like 10, but i can only and i will only love one

took class photo today. then there was this clique photo. like groups of 4 or 5. then he's like assigning everyone a number from 1 to 4. then i was one. then i was thinking i wont be so lucky to get the same number as him one la. so stop dreaming. then omg he's one omg~!! i totally cannot believe myself. it was the photo which i totally smiled the brightest. and the smile is real :D then he's like: this photo will be so nice hahaha. but other than him, c was also in the photo. maybe he likes c. he drew a pig on her hand! so jealous! zen me shuo he last time like her for like quite long. although he got like me also la. but nvm, still happy that he took photo with me~! meanwhile, i suspect that s like me. he usually heck care me one lor. but its like different today. hope that i think too much abt s alr

happy happy~~ cos i took 38 with him! when i boarded his friends were like.. but i think that i think too much haha. talked to him awhile :D i cant stop my legs from going jelly nor my lips from trembling. but i liked that feeling :D

i may have made a mistake that u explained before, but do i deserve to be reprimanded? i mean all students make mistakes and thats how they learn isnt it? and i wasnt not paying attention i was merely trying to do my corrections. its not as if i took out my phone or stared into blank space. but dont worry, i wont be angry or mad at u cos u are so not worth it and cos i know that i will have the last laugh HA! HA! HA!

Sleep it away..

Can I just sleep and forget about that darned love when I wake up?

i'm very scared that i will like g. he's very nice, too nice. but i cant like him cos i know even if i like him, i wont love him. cos i love kat. although he always seem to act cool and seem to be aloof, he actually isnt. he warm, humorous and funny. how i hope he could show that side of him more. but i dont deny i got abit abit hao gan for g. is like hao gan, not really like. i may like both, but i will only love one.

i feels bored cos kat's not online. but doesnt make a difference really even if he is cos we wont talk. and i'll still be waiting for him to talk to me. anyone, who is to be blamed but yourself. you are the one who didnt dare to even try to initiate one half a conversation last year. and still now u are afraid to take the first step. you are such a loser. u miss out everything cos you are scared. but even if i wasnt, it may not make a difference anyway

went out ytd.so the plan was buy presents for bao, surprise her and to the movies. poned drama so that i can go pull and bear. so happy that i finally finally found the top!! bought 2 tops! happy~~ so was on 229 with zhen, casey, gary, ben and davis. casey and zhen couldnt stop making fun of me and gary despite his story the other time round. im so scared he will misunderstand! he asked me if ive watched toy story 3. then i said havent and like v funny. then casey and zhen was like exchanging glances and asking if they are thinking the same thing. then he ask us go home fan xing zz. then in the mrt we 4 were haoldint eh same handle then casey was like oops and step back then zhen also oops and step back. make me so awkward ahhhhhhh. then we both using phone then casey was like stop smsing each other in front of us. then she say we wearing couple tee. i wanted to hide in a hole. then gary alighted phew. went peninsula and bought a v nice checkered backpack for bao. then went ion and qx, sharon and kat joined us. i really didnt know how to react when i saw him walking towards me. then at sephora the ice sort of broke? then later zhen was like: liting kiat leong ask if u want go watch movie later. then he was like: ya want go on a date with me. then im like omg~~ so happy! even though i know he's joking. i didnt know how to reply him. i just kept smiling like a idiot? zhen told bao that i looked damn paiseh. then he's like: eh why u ignore me. after that went far east for the flats. couldnt find my cardigan. can find but not enough money. then im like: dont have my cardigan alr :(( then he's like: peninsula got what. i bought mine there. then im like: your cardigan is my cardigan meh? hahaha. then trained back to bedok. that was the only time he walked beside me. then he asked want go watch movie later. then im ask what movie. then he replied "any movie" abit too enthusiastically :DD maybe i think too much hahaha. then took 225 to bao's shop. then zhenwei is like "white watch!" loudly and alot of times. cos i told them like last year i think guys who wear white watch v shuai. then he's like: ya why. then casey's like: someone's ideal guy criteria. then he's like: who? then casey replied: for you to guess. i didnt dared to look up. bao wasnt in the shop yet. was meant to be a surprise but her dad called her to tell her her friends are here. then she's like keep calling me. then we bluff her we go the cinema first. then emphasised to her dad to tell her that we go alr. her daD damn funny in the sense damn honest. too honest hahah. then i assured and assured her that we left alr before she decided to believe me. went kopitiam to eat. he fell asleep. so cute! took a photo (oops) though not secretly. i think he sounded damn cute when he talk in chinese with his mum. maybe cos v rarely hear him say chi. he shld talk in chi more often. easier for me to communicate with him also hahahaha. then went to surprise bao!! can see she damn happy. then after awhile he left to change. then like left me bao casey and zhen. then me and bao was like saying secrets. then casey and zhen become v bu shuang. say we keep secrets from them. i mean like its something fair. u tell me some secrets i can almost tell u all my secrets. like in the case of em and bao. if u dont share with me, i wont share with u either. simple as that. i duno why they got angry. didnt go movies in the end cos too late :(( sad sad. but heard from bao he wear till not bad hahaha. :DD

cos you never knew that i was waiting for you, that i've always been waiting..

Fish soup ftw!

Thanks to that fish soup, I cant stop thinking about you. I really cant stop. And it still hurts. I HOPE..

my husband loves to eat fish hahaha. :D as much as he wont believe it, as much as i cant believe it as well, i still like him. alot

POST JCT CELEBRATION!!

post jct, was supposed to have a sleepover at bao's house but i didnt due to obvious reason. so i met them ( bao, zhen zhen, ah boo )at 313 while waiting for the 4.20 eclipse at cineleisure. casey went off with her bf and will meet us later for the movie too. so we were shopping around 313. then bao told me that they called gary along for the movie too. at first i thought she was joking just want see my expression cos i think its quite weird haha. gary is a very nice friend, seriously very nice but i dont like him in the more than friends way. seriously not at all. there are many many times when i ask myself is it possible that i will like him. i waited and waited but the feeling never came. cos i really really treat him as a friend. but they just like to make fun of us cos that time pw we quite shou. then they like behave weirdly when they tell me gary coming. i seriously thought they joking. but in the end they werent. then i know they sure plan something cos they seriosuly behaving abit weirdly. i was thinking maybe they will make us sit together. then im like sit together sit togather lor no big deal. then we met casey and the bf sunbae jin outside the cinema. then im like asking casey "are ur sitting separate from us" then she say yes. then i thought she and the bf sit together at some separate corner. then zhenzhen was weird when she handed me me and gary's tix. then we went into the cinema. the commercials are already showing. it was very dark. so zhen and qx went to the row first and sat down. then only left one seat beside qx. then qx is like pointing the seat for bao. sudd there were no seats for me and gary. then im like "huh! where we sit" then she's like pointing to the 4 seats infront of them. for me gary casey and the bf. totally thanks ah. i dint know they so extreme. i dont mind but i scared very awkward for me and gary. the emotion im most scared of is awkwardness seriously. i also very scared that gary will misunderstand that i like him then they gu yi plan this for me. but nvm thats not the point now. the movie is! its damn funnnnynynyynynynynynnynynyny!! esp the part when jacob like mocking "eh u not fighting? pulled a muscle?" hahaha. also the part when jacob says he hotter than edward. and also the part when the charlie tried to talk to bella abt the birds and bees and bella said that she's a virgin and edward's oldschool. and charlie said he liked edward better. damn funnnnnnnnny!! the actions and fighting parts were really great. esp the part when vitoria and edward fought, along with seth and riley. damn exciting to the extent that i banged me feet on the ground hahaha. but there were a little too many trashy scenes. i keep using the hood of my jacket to cover my eyes haha. lucky nv watch with 10 aunty if not sure damn awkward. then the casey who's obssessed with abs keep making like "woo" sounds when jacob appeared. disgusting lewd sounds haha. when her bf is just sitting beside her hahah!! but overall i think this movie is really great. much better then twilight and new moon. after the movie we went for dinner at food court in 313. then we talked. i love to talk cos i will know more secrets hehe. so we asked gary abt he and his ex. he said he haven gotten over her. hope that made it very clear to the girls to stop trying to matchmake us. he says everything reminds him abt her. the movie, emo songs.. sometimes i really think its very hard to get over someone. i dont know why. u can keep trying but somehow the feeling gets back to u again, no matter how hard to try not to think abt it, to forget it. and i thought memories were supposed to fade with time. not really true cos they are still clear in my mind. sometimes its not the things that remind u of someone u miss. its u who are reminding yourself cos u just want to see him so much. and yes, i just want to see kat so much. talked to 9+ and went home. i initially intended to but alot of things today! like my cardigan and pencil box. but nv go to the appropiate place to buy so went home empty handed :( but may be going out again on monday for kbox and shopping! :D we'll probably call gary along cos we said we'll help him!! was walking to the interchange and i saw a back view who looked so much like kat. the way he walks and the way his hair is. and there was a girl beside him. they looked like they were dating. i really thought it was him initially cos the back view is seriously so alike. my heart totally sank. a nightmare came true. then sudd on closer look it wasnt him. but i know someday it will happen. it definitely will. and from that day on, i'll have to move on. i dont know if i can.

JAYCEETEE

jcts are over!! i'm actually quite disappointed with him especially for maths and chem. maths and chem was a total disaster. i really thought i studied very hard for chem. but it doesnt seem enough. i forgot the formulas, equations, concepts too easily. i totally skipped a 20 mark essay question on periodicity and 9 mark question on organic chem. i totally disaapointed with myself. similarly for maths. my mind just someone went blank. all of the sudden, i dont know how to perform transformation, do recurrence when they are taught so many times in class. and this is already jcts. i dont want to be struggling for prelims. hais i dont know what to do. i think i need to do a timetable and do more practices. practice practice practice practice. i cannot emphasise this enough yet im not doing it. i just hope that i'll put in more effort for prelims and a levels. this is the real thing already, no more fooling around!