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I'm afraid that my jct will fail me again just like how my mct totally did. Actually i'm really scared of a levels just that I dont show it on my face. Dont have to add onto the stress of my friends so I must be smiley. But actually deep within i'm v afraid that I wont get good grades for a levels. I'm afraid that the grades are not enough to get me into a good course that I want and that i'll be stranded. I'm afraid that i'll have regrets. I dont want to leave teejay with regrets. I'm afraid to let my 2nd aunty 10 aunty down. I'm afraid to let those who have expectations on me down. I'm afraid to let my teachers like ms sim and ms lim down. And I want to prove mr low to that I can get an A for maths. I want him to quit having those prejudiced thoughts against me. I want him to eat his own words seriously. I've studied quite alot for jct but I severely lack practice and practice. I lack motivation I dont know why. The huge motivation I had for o levels is gone, totally vanished. I dont know how I can regain it back =/